As I’ve gotten older, I’ve learned a lot of things. One of those things is that nothing in life is guaranteed. I know, we’ve heard it all before, but whenever I hear that I always think of it in an abstract kind of way. Recently, I’ve put more thought into it, and I can see it in practice.
When I was younger, I was taught not to view everyone as a friend, and I think I took that advice. I was under no delusion that the people i knew in high school were actually friends, and would actually be there for me when I needed them. After high school, there were a handful of those friends who stuck with me, and we began to build upon that relationship. All throughout my 20’s, these were the people I would ride or die for. These were my friends. In my 20’s, I was sure that these were the people I would know for the rest of my life.
Then, in my 30’s, those same friends were still with me, but life began to change. Those individuals were getting married and having kids, and moving onto another stage in life. Luckily, the foundation we created during our younger years allows us to still stay close, but what we used to do, no longer was happening. The every weekend hangouts evolved into seeing them on special occasions. As this happened, my weekend nights were taken over by new acquaintances. These new acquaintances showed me new experiences; things I had never really thought I would do and enjoy. I’ve even gone out of the country with these new acquaintances. I never saw that coming.
As I approach my late 30’s, I still know these same people and enjoy spending time with them. I’ve also learned that I enjoy spending time with myself, travelling, and trying new food. My point is, what I knew about my life when I was younger is not quite what it is now. It’s all a part of growing up, and anyone older than I could have told me this would happen.
Truth is, I never had anything really planned out, with the exception of a loosely targeted career. But I had ideas. Ideas that fell within my, then, current comfort zone. But, the changes I’ve experienced, though not major, have given me a new outlook. I don’t expect that things will move too far beyond my comfort zone, but I wouldn’t be surprised if it did. And honestly, that unknown is actually exciting, not scary.
I know that in five or ten years, I could be right where I am. Or I could be living somewhere overseas. I may be married with two kids (I think two is my max, but who knows), or I could be single (not my preference). I’m old enough to realize that life is a gift, and whatever happens in it should be embraced. There’s going to be pain, and hurt (hell, there could be disease and disability in my future) and I’ll have to deal with that, but there will also be opportunity, possibility, and tons of happiness if I allow it. That’s what I don’t think many could prepare me for. They couldn’t prepare me for how excited I’d be for what’s ahead, and I find that interesting…how everyone views the future differently. That’s not to say I’m not embracing my present. I’m doing much more of that these days as well. I guess what I’m saying, is that this life thing…it’s pretty neat. I pray that I have plenty of days ahead of me to embrace it like I’ve never done before. Just my thoughts.